Inside & Out of My Mind

Poems by Sophie...

 

Lost

 

I’m lost…

Do you even want to find me?

I’m scared.

Do you even want to calm me?

I’m crying.

Do you even want to ease me?

I’m shaking.

Do you even want to still me?

I’m screaming.

Do you even want to hush me?

I’m burning.

Do you even want to cool me?

I’m spinning.

Do you even want to steady me?

I’m bleeding.

Do you even want to heal me?

I’m broken.

Do you even want to fix me?

 

I’m lost…

I’m lost inside myself.

Please find and free me.

 

 

 

Please

 

How did it get to this?

These wounds so deep; unbeatable,

Inflicted by your tender kiss.

Her footsteps pace through my mind,

Beating, tearing, scratching at my sanity

Please, I can make it through.

 

My blood wells into the mouth of her river,

I stand and watch, immobilised with fear

Watching red run to the Dead Sea,

Then I feel your slow breath against my neck

I shiver with lust and devotion,

With rage and anger,

Love and Passion

Insanity intoxicates my mind

And I beg you;

Please, please don’t slip away from me

 

 

 

I know

 

I know her touch lingers on your lips

I know her scent poisons your skin,

Your kisses laced around her fingers,

Her cold grasp clasped around your heart

Smashing mine in tow

 

In your eyes I see it all,

In hers I see no shame,

She wants me tortured and demised;

Dead in the soul.

To your blinded eyes, I survive

Holding on to a fake romance

My jealousy a demon forever watching,

She’s your angel, your soul mate 

I’m the outcast, thrown in the middle

I am your broken masterpiece

A gothic fairy-tale on stage

The show must go on,

But please, please let me go.